Daughter with a Mother in Heaven

High Above the Sky,

By the Bossom of Jesus,

Heaven.

Hey Maa,

Today marks 20 months since you joined heaven, and I’ve seen you breathe your last. People say time just flew, but only I know how I spent each moment without you. Nothing feels the same. It breaks my heart that you’re not here for my big moments. You’re not here to watch me grow and do things that we dreamed about. At times, I forget what it means to have a mother. Not that I forgot you, but now I’ve got none to pamper me as you did.

People have moved on, and days and months have gone by, but I'm still stuck at the very moment on May 10th 2021, when I felt your cold feet with my bear hand. Though the doctors gave up on you, I knew in my heart that the Lord would restore you and bring you back to us. I was strong in my faith until I felt your cold feet. That touch brought chills down my body and at that moment I knew, you were gone. Gone to a place called home, called heaven.

Maa, nothing makes me happy now. I’m just there and living. Anything in the day triggers my grief and miss you a lot. Many times I see people complain about simple things in life, while I have lost a part of me with you. Life is not the same, I am not the same. I’ve changed, and I’ve learned about life the hard way. Christmas and New Year just came by and went, I didn’t even feel like celebrating cause, you were our source of joy. I feel like a broken soul and miss everything about you.

I miss our heart-to-heart conversations, giggles and laughter.

I miss having you around me.

I miss our shopping spree.

I miss our fights, and I miss you waiting for me to get back home.

I miss your hugs, your smell, your touch and your prayers.

I miss your constant phone calls and texts.

I feel numb watching others have all the time in the world with their mumma’s while I was snatched of my time. I feel guilty that your absence has become a normal thing now, and I have to learn to live with it. Now I feel bad when I enjoy life without you, I have this constant fear of forgetting you.

Maa, the Lord has been the anchor of my life all this while, he has been my all. I cannot put into words how amazing and comforting he had been towards Daddy and me. We are alive and able to move forward only because of him. Every time people look at me they see a glimpse of you. I remember all that you taught me about the Lord’s Faithfulness and His Love. I promise to make you proud.

Though you’re not here with us, I believe that one day we’re all gonna meet in Heaven.

I can’t wait to hug you.

Until then Happy 20 months in heaven Mumma

Love you Always and Forever,

With Love

Your Daughter