Introducing THIS DAY LAST YEAR

It's been 11 months, and I still wake up saying, "Maa! I'm hungry !" only to hear back no answer. I sit on my bed sobbing and tell myself that she's gone. The pain is still fresh and adds on with every passing day. In the past months, Every time I saw the calendar and realized that the month of April was approaching, it petrified me. April 10th to May 11th has been my season of terror, and I knew they would come back to haunt me.

My hands still quiver when I think about all that happened during those days.

I often lay on my bed, look at the ceiling and ask, "Lord! What am I supposed to do with all this pain? I did not want my pain to go in vain. I wanted to do something with it, which helped me change my way of praying. I began praying and asking, "Lord! Teach me to use this pain for your glory." The Lord did not answer my prayer immediately but had his way of leading me according to his will.

While preparing Sunday School worksheets and stories, I decided to document the stories with their bible references. When I came across the crucifixion of Jesus, I began turning to all the bible references and scriptures. As I kept reading them all, I realized that the Bible did not hide the agony and pain that Jesus went through. In fact, every detail about the suffering of Jesus has been written in the gospels over and over again. Be it the mental trauma that Jesus underwent when he was humiliated in front of the crowds or the physical pain he endured while being beaten with whips, everything is written in the Bible. When the highest God has been so open about pain and suffering, why do we humans hide and stop ourselves from opening up about our grief?

I did not want to stay in bed and have a greaving season but wanted to take it as a challenge and testify my journey through the valley of the shadow of death. People often tell me to forget all that happened and move on, but how do you do that? How can you forget something that shook you from your core, something that turned your life topsy-turvy? Take it from me, someone who is going through it. IT'S NOT THAT EASY.

But drawing strength from the Lord will help us get through it. And this is what I want to share. I want to share my grief journey with the Lord by my side.

On this very thought,

Dear Readers,

I present to you the series 'This Day Last Year', which will reflect the last days of my Mummy (Dr. Annie Job) and all that I went through.

I am not here to glorify pain or gain sympathy, I am here to share my story and how the Lord helped me deal with everything. I would have never been able to cope with all of it if it would have not been for the Lord.

May the Lord's name be glorified through every chapter of this series,

By HIS Grace,

A Motherless Daughter.