To Maa, With Love.

To Mumma,

Address: Heaven

Hi Maa,

I know you must be having the best time up there! Sitting right beside Jesus, looking down and complaining all about me.

It's been six months.

Days have gone by, the world moved forward, everybody resumed back to their lives, but I'm still standing right there. At that very moment, beside your hospital bed, touching your cold feet realizing that it is time to say goodbye.

It's been 183 days that I hugged you.

I miss everything about you.

I miss getting scolded by you, miss planning Sunday School with you, miss your handmade food, and mostly miss receiving your never-ending phone calls.

Maa, I'm trying to do things like you always did, but it is very difficult. I find myself sitting staring into nowhere, tears streaming down my cheeks as I think of the simple things we did together.

Our never-ending conversations, Our Cooking sessions, Planning Church Activities together, Long drives, Laughter, and giggles!

Now everything seems so grey!

It breaks my heart when I see others spending time with their Mother's and doing simple things together.

I don't know how to go about in life. Cause I always ran to you whenever I needed anything, And now I'm just standing still, not knowing where to go.

I could not write anything since you left because this very blog/website was your idea.

And to continue it without you is so painful.

Every time I sit down to write, I end up in tears.

With you went so much of me!

There are million times I find myself needing you…

Especially,

When I see others running to their Mother for help and advice, Where am I supposed to go?

When I want to have the girl talk, Where am I supposed to go?

When I feel like talking to you, Where am I supposed to go?

When I have a bad day, Where am I supposed to go?

When I'm confused regarding shopping! Where am I supposed to go?

When I sit and cry and wish for you to give me a tight hug, Where am I supposed to go?

When I am sick and want to sleep in your lap, Where am I supposed to go?

I know you must be thinking that I've forgotten all that you taught me, But let me tell you, I forgot nothing. And yes! just as you taught me, I'm going to take everything to the Lord in prayer.

I totally get why the Lord took you so early. You were so precious and perfect in his sight that he just wanted you to join him in heaven.

With all the grief inside me, I still smile and Praise the Lord saying "Great Is HIS Faithfulness."

I praise the Lord for the life that you lived and the Legacy that you left behind.

Thankyou Maa, for being my Mumma.

You were and will always be my everything.

You will always be a huge part of everything Daddy & I do.

Love you Maa, Always and Forever

Happy 6 Months in Heaven!

Until we meet again,

With Love,

Your Daughter.